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whooO! gayahin ko lang sina Geling at Lan Lan~! haha. add ko pa nga pala blogs nila sa links ko.. anyway.. eto un.

Go to Google images
Search up your answer
Pick one image from the first page
And post.

1. The age you will be on your next birthday

yes, hindi siya obvious diba~?!

2. A place you’d like to travel to

ay, gusto ko sana ung place mismo..

hulaan nyo kung anung country yan !!

3. Your favorite place

haha~ bakit si father ang lumabas?!

I love CSA MAKATI!!

4. Your favorite object

pencil…

congrats.

5. Your favorite food

Anu yAN!!?!?! j/k

6. Your favorite animal

naks, kina-career nya ang pagtakbo

7. Your favorite color

black daw, so black bear.

labo!!

8. The town in which you were born

poverty-ness

9. The town in which you live

ay pareho sa #8, booo

10. The name of a past pet

naks, pati pet naging Anime na!!

11. The first name of a past love

yan tuloy, obvious ung name.

pahamak tong google na to eh.. j/k

12. Your nickname/screen name

ay.. sabi ko nga.

13. Your first name

uyy, ako daw yan..!! nye *uwi na*

14. Your middle name

so mannequin na pala ko ngayon..

15. Your last name

aba, concert!!! tama ba!?

16. A bad habit of yours

haha. gusto ko sana ung kay Bart.

sabihin nalang nating si earl yung nasa pic.

hehehehehe.

17. Your first job

an artist’s impression of a Supernova

yes, kinareer din..!!

18. Your grandmothers’ name

place pala yun.. who knew?!

yehey~! tapos na.! masayang activity to.. lalo na dun sa “name of past love” na part. kakatawa, seryoso. hehe. try nyu rin!

from Gela’s Blog

somehow, right at this moment, i feel uncertainty. it may be caused by something i saw that i wasn’t supposed to see or maybe its just the current status of my country and the world as a whole. Maybe it is also caused by my inability to determine my own wants and desires. okay, i’ll blab about myself now.

our most recent session/meeting in social studies was about religion. our teacher tackled many subtopics for the introduction *only* and some of these are the different kinds/types/levels of uh, *how do you call that..?* religious belief-? anyway.. like Theists who believe in God, Atheists who do not believe in God, Agnostics who are 50/50, and Deists who believe there is a god but their god is more personal in nature *they each have their own individual god*. right. moving on, i somehow had the idea that i might be an agnostic or a deist. why?

well, there are times/points in my young life that i questioned the existence of God. sometimes i ask myself, ifHe is a good God and a merciful one at that then why does He have to allow all the sufferings and hardships to happen? and sometimes, even to people who don’t deserve such things? Why did He create us? Is there a purpose for our existence? And if the main goal of living is being good, dying, and then going to Heaven then why do we need to actually live in the first place? If our goal is to achieve unity with God then why can’t we just be born in Heaven or something in that sense? Isn’t creating intellectual beings who continually question the existence of their Creator actually a worthless thing to have done or do? etc.

I have so many questions to ask but I know that nobody can answer any of them. Besides, we’re all humans here and we’re not perfect. I’m guessing that we will never be. And i can’t really say that there isn’t any God because i don’t have proof that God does not exist.

and there’s my point for the idea of myself being an agnostic.

Next, a deist. i cannot deny that i still ask for the help of some god out there who can hear me when i’m facing a certain situation. i still pray and ask for guidance, for protection and things i need or want. i still somehow acknowledge the fact that there is a god. But then it comes to a point when i am certain that there is a supreme being out there and that being is an entity which i can turn to at any time. A being i can trust with all my deepest, darkest secrets and mistakes. I can tell this god anything~! This being does not set rules and restrictions. No laws, no punishment. Just something/someone i know is actually there but isn’t. I can relate the feeling/experience of having this god as to having a best friend, a parent, and a teacher, all living abroad, all in one.

so now i’m done. and i just want to add one last thing~ i believe that the choices we make in life should not be decided by others for us, may it be our gender, our religion, our beliefs, or even our favorite color or clothing style. Each person has his/her own way of looking at things and analyzing them. We are all unique *or so they say* and life shouldn’t stop us from living.

I sensed a scent
One of hold and restraint
I knew it was yours
Though you were nowhere near
I fall back – I stop
Dumbfounded
I find myself frozen
You don’t know what you’re doing to me
And I’m telling you this -
I sure hate the feeling.

by: Ice
5:43 PM 9/27/2007

“Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone and do not be troubled about the future for it has yet to come. Live in the present and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering…” -Inday’s version of “don’t cry over spilled milk”

Magandang Gabi sa lahat ng Homo sapiens dyan. bored lang ako kaya eto, nagbablog. alam nyo na, ang daming takdang-aralin, may mga pagsusulit pa bukas. wala akong magawa.. kasi naman – tapos na ko mag-aral. minsan naiisip ko, “paano kaya kung hindi naisipan ni Lord na gumawa ng isang globong matatawag natin sa pangalang EARTH?” magkakaroon na kaya ng buhay sa mars? eh paano naman kung may earth nga pero hindi naman naisipan ni Lord na pahintulutang mag-Evolve ang mga organisms? mahirap ata yun. Paano naman kaya kung sabihin na nating, hindi nagka-inlaban sina Adan at Eba? May tao pa kaya ngayon? tingin ko wala. paano na kung wala tayo sa mundo? edi syempre hindi ako nagtatype sa mga oras na ito. eto pa, isipin mo, paano nalang kaya ang tao kung hindi naisipan ni Lord na lagyan ng tubig ang karagatan at punan ng lupa ang mundo para ating mapaglakbayan? paano tayo maliligo, sige nga? paano? basta ang alam ko, babaho tayong lahat. ang saya nun.

hala sige. maliligo muna ko. nyakhakhak.

[ ito ay isang halimbawa ng blog entry na itinype for the sake of typing. how sad. ]

How stupid i truly am. really really stupid. foolish. insane. weak. to allow myself to be sad over something as trivial as that. to allow myself to get hurt. to feel hurt and alone after what i discovered. i don’t know why i lied to myself. to everyone. why even until now i feel like i don’t want to admit to myself that behind all this friendship there lies love. forgotten and unwanted. calling out to me. yet it doesn’t work that way. because love is supposed to be shared by two people. two different people who understand each other. who care. who wants to make everything alright for the other when the world is crumbling. i guess this is also my reason. this stupid word called love. which is why i keep living in denial. this thing that i feel. love for a friend. and love for someone i want to consider as more than a friend. i’m trapped and restricted. only allowed to say what people think is right to say and what i think is right to say. because one way or another i’ll have to let go of it. of my love. and just be satisfied – clinging to that painful boundary called friendship. i cried. really, i did. but after that i realized i was a fool. i have to let go of what i feel. because at the end, love always comes hand in hand with the word pain. besides, i don’t want to throw our friendship just like that. i don’t want to end what i think is already enough, yet in truth is not. i don’t want to make everything more complicated when it already is.

or maybe it’s just mere infatuation.

in any case i’ll just have to go on with life and continue letting people see my mask, until that day that i meet the one who will take it off and bury it 6ft below the ground. well, that time might never come. i may never be able to find the one for me. the real one. maybe after all this everything will not be like how it was. maybe everything will be different for me. i might not feel anything anymore. and i may as well not think of reliving this experience once again. i think once is enough for everything in this world, because after all of this i should’ve already learned my lesson.

PS. sorry for all the wrong punctuation marks. i don’t feel like myself at the moment. lahat ata yan puro period lang eh.

Ngayon ay isa na rin ako sa mga masusugid na fans ni Inday~

Hindi naman maiiwasan eh.

una sa lahat, walang kinalaman ang pamagat ng post na ito sa laman ng post na ito. ewan ko kung bakit. marami nga pala akong dinagdag/sinalihan na fanlistings.. kaka-update lang kanina.

soo…tapos na ang lahat lahat ng mga exams [yehey!] PERO [isang malaking PERO] – may pasok parin bukas. May marian procession ata. actually, hindi yun “ata”.. meron talagang M.P. bukas. birthday ba ni Mary? bakit mo ko tinatanong?! basta, hindi ko alam. moving on – masasabi kong napakabait ni Lord sa kadahilanang inilayo niya kami [ako at schoolmates] sa tiyak na kapahamakan. kasi diba may “glorietta event” nga na nangyari. at kung hindi bumagyo ng nakaraang mga araw [at kung hindi nasuspinde ang klase], malamang, huling araw na namin sa eskwela nung friday [tama ba? basta kung kelan naganap ang g.Event] at mas malamang na karamihan [kundi man lahat] ng estudyante ng HS ay maglalakwatsa at pupunta ng Glorietta [kung saan naganap ang g.Event].. so – nakuha mo ba ung gusto kong sabihin? hinde? bakit naman? basahin mo nalang ulit – mas matutuwa pa ang mundo sa ‘yo. ewan ko kung bakit. basta ganun eh. okay? yun YUN.

End of story. [para tahimik na ko]

I smile as the Prince takes Cinderella’s hand

But deep inside — I’m DYING.

Out on the street we dance in the rain
Don’t let go of me, I’m starting to fall.

alam nyo ba kung bakit ganyan ung title? kasi — today ung street-dancing thing at ang country namin ay Bahamas. so ung girls may grass skirt — na hindi gawa sa grass — at headress na may feathers. Yung sa guys, mask lang na may feathers din — mahilig kami sa feathers — tapos may crepe paper na nilagay sa may ankle..i think. so ayun. moving on, pagdating ko sa classroom with kirsten — nagkasabay kami ng paagkyat — i noticed na lahat ng tao may jacket or shirt over the “white shirt” which is part of our costume. well, ako din may jacket. reason: see-through daw ung mga tshirt namin.. and i gladly agreed. seryoso talaga. so after nun, nagsimula na dumami ung mga people and we started practicing the dance. nilagay ako dun sa mga maglilimbo at nung una nagprotesta pa ko. “Bakit nandyan ako? Hindi ako marunong maglimbo… T.T dun nalang ako sa mga walang gagawin!” sabi ko pa. at hindi ko lubos maisip, nung sumasayaw na kami at naglilimbo na sila sa likod ng room — kasama ako na nakatayo lang — aba’y kaya ko palang magpakabali ng buto at maglimbo for the first time in my life..! akalain mo?!? and i’m telling you, being small does have its own advantages.. “may pakinabang din pala ‘ko!” naisip ko. ang saya diba. pero hindi pa dyan nagtatapos ang lahat dahil marami pa kong gustong ibahagi sa inyo kaso nga lang inaantok na ‘ko. hassle talaga. bakit? as i said, inaantok na ko so its for me to know and for YOU to find out. well kung 2B ka, you know what i’m talking about.. the rain and all~ yup. i hated it.

so.. ayun na nga. tapos na. bye muna~ until.. next.. time….. *yawn*

P.S. I’m starting to fall na daw.. teka teka..! Starting?!? Ang tagal ko nang nahuhulog dito ah~! Saluhin mo naman ako. kapagod na eh. amf